Today is my 75th day sober, when I started out on this journey I couldn’t even see myself going a few days without an alcoholic drink, now I just don’t want one. I am actually starting to feel proud of what I have achieved!
However, I also remain cautious, the last thing I want to do is feel like I have cracked it and let my guard down. Alcoholics Anonymous give their members a red chip at 90 days, the red colour signifies a warning not to get complacent or to confident.
I had an operation two weeks ago and spent my first ever night in hospital (not something I would recommend), so I have been really out of sorts for the last fortnight. However, this has meant I have been thinking more about how sore I am and my recovery than I have about wine, there have been quite a few days where I haven’t thought about drinking at all, so maybe we should all go have a major operation to help us take our minds off the booze!
I am feeling happy at the moment, my recovery is going well and my state of mind is good with no negativity, anxiety or bad moods.
I had been doing meditation most days, but the operation has meant I won’t be able to get back into this for another week or so, I am also banned from running and the gym which is so frustrating as I generally run each day, only a few days and I can get back into it again. I need to get my trainers back on as I have a marathon to run on 2nd December!
I am still reading sober-books most days and checking in with the Facebook sober-groups I am part of, this helps me stay focused.
The Be Sober Facebook group is amazing, it has become a wonderful place where people can share their ups and downs without judgment and in complete privacy. We are getting new members each day, but it is also a fairly small group which gives it a lovely personal feel.
I have a fancy formal dinner to attend at my Sons school tomorrow evening, there will be around 200 people there with drinks and canapes on arrival. I don’t see it as a test, but it will be my first social event like this and I am sure beer and wine will be flowing, I am looking forward to the enjoyment of being able to drive home, not making a fool of myself in front of my Sons teachers and waking up on Saturday without a hangover!
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